25th April 2011

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20% is two thirds of the way to failure

This week’s life score: 2/10

I feel like my ego has caused a lot of problems, making me belligerent, uncooperative, emotional, and incapable of dealing with minor setbacks. And also somewhat unhealthily obsessive.

Also, I have been unmotivated, probably burnt out from stress, and developed a volatile temperament.

In response I have become physiologically retarded. No, I don’t cry easily, but every time I hear something negatively shocking I have thrown up. I thought spring break was the first and last time, but no, it’s happened every day this week. I do not have an eating disorder. I just think people need to stop shocking me and upsetting my short term plans.

Or maybe I should be more flexible and accommodating, but if you are my best friend and I have my life set up to sit on rocking chairs reminiscing about life when we’re old, you cannot tell me you’re going to hop on a plane and transfer to UCLA. Especially if you are bad at keeping in touch. This did not happen by the way.

Repercussions of my agitation have led to me playing with the emotions of everyone else in my vicinity to compensate for my own numbness. 

I also feel jipped, sold short, and taken advantage of.

Also 5 hour energy made me throw up too. nasty ass crap

sigh. This week was hella shitty.